A little smthng dat I want..

What do I do...
Where do I go...
Two forces...
Pullin me from two different directions...
Unbearable pain...
Ripping me apart...
What do I do...
Where do I go...

Do me a favor Lord...
Take me with you...
This is all I want...
This is all I ask for...

........

Sometimes you want ppl to react d way u wud luv...
but dey react d way they luv...
Sometimes d one u luv d most hit u d hardest...
dere single sentence hits u lik a thousand knife...
it pierces ur heart...
n enters ur soul...
n hit u were it hurts d most...
For dem it meant nothing...dey dont even realise dey said it...
but for me, it crashes my whole world...
n i break down yet again...

:'(

Sometimes I want to cry...cry for no reason...
Tears flow...none to stop them...
I have ppl all around me...yet i am so lonely...
Outside i am happy...
but yet there is an ache in my heart which i dont understand...
Maybe because I dont want to...
or maybe because i cant...

All vague thots...

U feel dat ur livin in a different world......
D ppl whom u cared abt n d ppl who cared abt u.....none seem to wid u....
Sometimes d world seem to b running very fast.....u feel dat ur laggin behind.....lagging behind everything.....!!!
U want to walk wid dem......but....sometimes u jus dont care....
U want to run.....run to plc where evryone knew u......run to d place where ppl cared for u.....run to d plc where ppl wanted u coz dey luvd u n not coz dey need u.......

Straight from my "Dear Diary"...

Sometimes I feel i am standing in the middle of nowhere...
ppl seem to rush past me...
none seem to care to stop for me for a while...
n why will they...??
they all live in their own world...
I stand there with numb feelings...
I am not thinking about anything...
yet i am thinking alot...

Sometimes...

Sometimes in life u jus want to let go of urself.....
Sometimes everything seems to b falling apart....
Sometimes everything seems to b falling rite in place.....
But sometimes u jus feel not to care about watever is happenin around u.....
You want to let go of urself.....
You cannot decide whether watever is happenin around u intended to happen.....??? ...or is it jus happenin coz u wanted dem to happen...??
Sometimes life seems to b very confusing....
But d other time when u sit n think for a while....derz no confusion at all......
You feel dat u need to tk control of watever is happenin....n when u cant even control ur own thoughts then how can u control the happenings happening around u...??
den u think again.....n realise dat watevr happens happens for good......

Life...

Life is never what u want it to be...
Life is never what u expect it to be...
Life is just life and u have to take it as yours...