What does it matter..??

Duz it matter wat i do...
Duz it matter where i go...
Duz it matter wat i feel...
Duz it matter even a bit to u...

Duz it matter wen i cry...
Duz it matter wen i laugh...
Duz it matter wat hurts me...
Duz it matter wat pleases me...
Duz it matter even a bit to u...

Duz it matter wat i go thru...
Duz it matter wat i will go thru...
Duz it matter wen i feel lonely...
Duz it matter even a bit to u...

Duz it matter wat i eat...
Duz it matter wen i eat...
Duz it matter whether i eat...
Duz it..even a bit to u...

Duz it matter wen i sleep...
Duz it matter whether i sleep...
Duz it even a bit to u...

Duz it matter wat i lik...
Duz it matter wat i hate...
Duz it matter wat i want...
Duz it matter wat i dont...
Duz it..even a bit to u...

Duz it matter wat i dream of...
Duz it matter wat i think of...
Duz it matter wat scares me...
Duz it matter wat soothes me...
Duz it..even a bit to u...

Will it matter wen m gone...
Will it matter wen i die...
Will it matter even a bit to u...???

:D

An ecstatic feeling...
Tremendous joy...
I am happy as I can never be...
Thinking about nothing...
Just living each and every moment...
Treasuring each and every second...
Capturing the tiniest fraction of memory...
Preserving each minute of life...
Developing new ways of thinking...
Learning new modes of life...
Life has changed...
And I LOVE this change...!!

A little smthng dat I want..

What do I do...
Where do I go...
Two forces...
Pullin me from two different directions...
Unbearable pain...
Ripping me apart...
What do I do...
Where do I go...

Do me a favor Lord...
Take me with you...
This is all I want...
This is all I ask for...

........

Sometimes you want ppl to react d way u wud luv...
but dey react d way they luv...
Sometimes d one u luv d most hit u d hardest...
dere single sentence hits u lik a thousand knife...
it pierces ur heart...
n enters ur soul...
n hit u were it hurts d most...
For dem it meant nothing...dey dont even realise dey said it...
but for me, it crashes my whole world...
n i break down yet again...

:'(

Sometimes I want to cry...cry for no reason...
Tears flow...none to stop them...
I have ppl all around me...yet i am so lonely...
Outside i am happy...
but yet there is an ache in my heart which i dont understand...
Maybe because I dont want to...
or maybe because i cant...

All vague thots...

U feel dat ur livin in a different world......
D ppl whom u cared abt n d ppl who cared abt u.....none seem to wid u....
Sometimes d world seem to b running very fast.....u feel dat ur laggin behind.....lagging behind everything.....!!!
U want to walk wid dem......but....sometimes u jus dont care....
U want to run.....run to plc where evryone knew u......run to d place where ppl cared for u.....run to d plc where ppl wanted u coz dey luvd u n not coz dey need u.......

Straight from my "Dear Diary"...

Sometimes I feel i am standing in the middle of nowhere...
ppl seem to rush past me...
none seem to care to stop for me for a while...
n why will they...??
they all live in their own world...
I stand there with numb feelings...
I am not thinking about anything...
yet i am thinking alot...

Sometimes...

Sometimes in life u jus want to let go of urself.....
Sometimes everything seems to b falling apart....
Sometimes everything seems to b falling rite in place.....
But sometimes u jus feel not to care about watever is happenin around u.....
You want to let go of urself.....
You cannot decide whether watever is happenin around u intended to happen.....??? ...or is it jus happenin coz u wanted dem to happen...??
Sometimes life seems to b very confusing....
But d other time when u sit n think for a while....derz no confusion at all......
You feel dat u need to tk control of watever is happenin....n when u cant even control ur own thoughts then how can u control the happenings happening around u...??
den u think again.....n realise dat watevr happens happens for good......

Life...

Life is never what u want it to be...
Life is never what u expect it to be...
Life is just life and u have to take it as yours...