No, not anymore..!!

Sometimes I feel I want to evaporate..
Or amidst the misty fields simply just fade..

Sometimes I wish I was standing in rain..
So that no one could see that I was crying in pain..

I had been living like this, thinking of it to be the only world..
But now I want to cross the hill and reach out to a whole new world..

I cant anymore bear the suffocating breathe inside..
I want to kill those memories and become more alive..

There is no feeling now, only numbness all around..
No voices I can hear, not even a sound..

I no longer feel my wounds, not at all, not even a bit..
Maybe the pain has subsided or I have become used to it..

Its now been enough that I have tried..
Time has come to dry the tears that I have cried..

Its the time now to bring back that lost smile..
For which alone I have to walk yet another mile..

But..

I'll do that whatever it takes..
Even if it means to give my heart a few more aches..

Because..

I dont want to reach out anymore..
I dont want to cry anymore..

I dont want to reach out anymore..
I dont want to cry anymore..